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Wednesday, June 16, 2004

Week Zero orientation day 1

finally e day has come..week zero day one..yest i was tinking tt "haa..my partner's long..my buddie..good good..sure no prob handling e whole LT together" in e end..he called n sae he cant some for both days coz he coach wants him to go for training by hook or by crook..i was like"wahlau..den i partner wif whu?" i heard frm long n zj tt i'll b pairing up wif sean..though i nv tok to him b4..i tink he's quite a fun guy..so i went sch tinking tt im pairing up wif sean..only to find out tt im ALONE!e one n only HL in e A&F LT20..wa..i really felt like crying at tt moment..i duno y..i seldom feel like crying except... duno y..when i noe im alone..suddenly i juz feel so lost.duno wad to do..duno wad cna i do..juz feel like tearing...i was feeling completely down when i walk out of e LT n head towards my own LT to freet e freshies..walking out of e LT which we had briefing..there wasnt ani smile on my face..there's wasnt any expression..at e door someone sae"hey smile~~" n i forced a smile at him...

bt no matter wad..i gt to smile n lead e freshies..i cant b e way i m when i step out of e LT after e debrief..so walking towards LT 20..i assure myslef tt everiting's gona b fine..i'l do well alone too..i can make it..n i smile..

there i go..in e LT..freshie started coming in n i allocate some to bring em in n others to interact wif em 1st..e SLs in my LT r great..b4 everting start..they assure mi tt they will help mi no matter wad..esp ed sunjit n cy..thanks guys~~i admitted tt i was blur at e start of e day..duno wad variety of food we had..duno how to operate e lights n stuff..call siwei a few times to ask mi tings..sorry~~conan oso encourage mi n tel mi wad i shld do..well..in e end..it wasnt as bad as i tot it to be..although i wldnt sae i did a great job..i believed i cld hav b much better..bt i still rather satisfied wif e everiting todae..thanks everione for e help u all gave~~thanks for e concern u all gave..some was like"hey how's everiting?can handle?"so nice..argato~~~

well..stayed in sch till 12..coz we were having some meeting..n was discussing tml programmes wif e others..n we were anacking away like mad while discussing..throat wasnt tt good le..bt i still ate alot..hee..n mi ling n sean decorated one canvas tile for program com..hee.nt bad quite nice n outstanding..den went back home together wif wei hong n sean..gt2 take cab home..again..

wonder how tml will b like~~~~

hold my hands tight and we will make it through...