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Sunday, July 11, 2004

its over~

duno y....im realli ok...im not crying animore..not at all..not veri sad when i tink of him..not even tinking of him much..how cum ah...i tot i will b back to e time when we juz broke up...so sad..so much tears..cant stop tinking of him...how cum now...i dun..to sae e truth..i hasnt realli tink much abt him this past few daes..had been enjoying myself out wif frens..somehow..i had put him at e back of my mind..far away..n i used to tink tt e thought of him n his gf will kill mi..will literally tear mi apart...bt it seems like it din...when i tink of him having a gf nw...its seems like juz nth..

aniwae..duno y...i gradually begin to feel tt e time tt i wasted for him was really not worth it..2yrs plus...so mani things happen..he hurt mi so mani times during tis whole period..n i still there..waiting n waiting..somehow..i feel tt he's realli not as good as i tink of him to b..mayb wad his fren sae is correct.."alot of things u dun noe abt him...tis whole period of time..he noe alot gals..had a few gf..bt break le..heard tt he din realy treat them good too..aiya..u haven seen e ugly side of him completely..oni 3 ppl know abt all his things..its realli not worth la.." mayb his fren is rite...tat oso explains y throughtout e whole while we had hot n cold periods..probably e cold periods is when he have gf...

aniwae..i m giving him up completely...n tis time round..i tink i did it...aniwae..i nv seen e ugly side of him completely..bt wad i juz noe is tt when we al together..he's reali good..aniwae..i juz wish for him to stay happy...tats all..he wont b more than a fren to mi animore..

hold my hands tight and we will make it through...