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Friday, September 24, 2004

decided to blog on something dat has been on my mind for a couple of daes..

sometime ago..i realised tt some ppl are fed up wif mi..y? bcoz i dun study. becoz im too slack..

yes. i've realli been slacking way way too much. too too too much...not been attending lec much..frm start of sem till now i've not done a single tut for any subject at all.. n i absolutely had no idea wadsoever abt wad's going on in tut..basicalli i juz tok or dream during tut.. n many lec notes r clean sheets of paper with nothing written on the blanks tt r supposed to be filled up..

somebody said smth like tis to mi "do u noe u've have always been veri lucky? u wan to depend on ur luck tis time again izzit? den u wan to last min den chiong everiting n after tt ask everione to help u again rite?"

tat hurts. seriously. i felt like crying at tt pt of time. bt i din. n i wun. becoz i've always been a gal who dun cry in front of others. n tis time it's no exception.

i noe. dat i've always been lucky. i noe. dat i cant depend on luck. i noe. dat luck wun always stays wif mi. i noe. dat one day it will all b gone n i'll probably fail like mad. i noe. dat it may probably be tis time dat i'll fail like nobody's business. i all noe. i realli noe.

they r rite. i dun blame them for being fed up. not at all. becoz im e one in e wrong. they had told mi not once, not twice, bt mani times tt i shld serioulsy not slacking. i did not heed their advice. bt now, it has come to a pt of time tt everiting has become a fact. e fact tt i've been slacking n ignoring my studies.. e oni ting tt i can do now, is to try my best to absorb as much tings as possible tt i can in e veri little time left for mi to catch up.

tis time..i wun study wif them le..not tt im angry wif them being fed up wif mi or wad.i dun. it's juz becoz i dunwan to trouble them again..i dunwan to bother them n ask for help again.

u all hav a pt. u all r right. sorry for making u all fed up. it wasnt a deliberate one.

hold my hands tight and we will make it through...