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Monday, January 31, 2005

todae i packed my room again. yes again. e 3rd time. somehow i juz seem to hav soo mani stuffs. my room is so small yet there's soo mani stuff! mum's wondering how i stuff those things in my room.. haa..

well..lots of stuff to pack means lots of rubbish too. haa.. i reali threw away lots of things..haa.. packing up means touching stuff tt i haven touch for a reali long time. saw e stuff my ex gave mi when we were together. e tons of neo-prints we took then.. saw e letters i wrote bt nv send out after we broke off. saw all e stuff i did for him bt were nv given to him. aniwae, i threw e stuff away. n all e cute soft toys i gave it to my younger cousie. i even gave out e reali cute big doggie tt i have on my bed. dearie ask mi y i threw e things instead of probably juz keeping them away. well, i used to keep all e stuff in a box. bt i din keep away e soft toys tt time. n i still had e doggie on my bed n hug it. coz somehow, i cldnt bear to. bt now, i juz feel tt i reali dun nid them. maybe u may regard mi as heartless or wad 4 nt even keeping them for memories. bt to me, i feel tt there's no pt in keeping. i will not want to take a look at them. n i hasnt been hugging e doggie for sometime. i've kept them nearly 3 yrs. its has always been in tt cupboard. i used to take them out to see from time to time.n e things inside used to make my tears fall incessantly. i hasnt been looking at them for nearly a yr. now, when i took at it again, there wasnt much of a feeling. i juz dunwan to keep them animore. not a single thing. its juz me. if i can give them away, i noe i've completely let go.

love is rather unfathomable sometimes. aniwae, i juz glad to hav dearie now! hope nth btw us changes. if they do, its for e better. =) went dear's place after packing up. almost done wif packing.except tt e cosmetics n nail polish area hasnt been packed..hee..bt no prob abt tt.. btw dear gt mi reali nice earrings, billabong top n some foodstuff!! so nice..heee i love it!soo pinkish...hee.. bt dear din juz pass e pressie to mi..told mi tt its in his room n made mi search for it. haa.. gt dear a snoopy night light. heee..saw it yest when im out shopping to gt it for him. reali glad he love it! =)

i gona go slp. tml class at 9. its 1 plus now! omg. how can i wake up?

hold my hands tight and we will make it through...